A conundrum
This is actually an email i wrote to my parents. I think it says it all.
Dear Dad and Mom,
I applied for a job that incorporated training in clinical management a few weeks back. It involves 2 years of training in Leicester, specifically in the accident and emerygency department. I thought getting management skills training would be a great skill to bring back to malaysia, and i think i’ll get a diploma after that in management and leadership.
I got shortlisted for the interview. Got a call today. 17 people got shortlisted, out of which 12 will be chosen. It’s in 2 weeks time. The thing is i’m not sure if i want the job now! I’ve been working so hard on my audit for the past few days and felt convicted as to why i’m working so hard for the health service here, when there’re bigger needs back home that i’m not really thinking about. It’s like i got a check in my priorities for medicine. It’s so easy to get caught up in the flow of career ladder climbing and to forget the real reason why i’m doing medicine. And doing obs and gynae and delivering babies and participating in the joy of seeing a fetus alive after a threatened miscarriage just got me thinking more about what i wanna do, and can do, with my life to help other lives.
So yesterday night i thought to myself that i just wanna go home next year! So i got a bit thrown off guard when i got shortlisted for the interview. i should be over the moon with it, but now i don’t even know if i want to stay here longer! i guess the interview experience would probably be good for me, and getting shortlisted in itself is a miracle coz it’s harder for non-Uk non-EU citizens. And hopefully since this is a great opportunity and if i get it, JPA will let me do it before going home.
But yeah, right now my heart seems to be in the jungles of sarawak. Haha.. weird huh. Please pray for me that God will give clear direction, and that His will be done whatever the outcome of the interview is. It’s on Oct 15.
Love lots.
November 4th, 2008 at 7:44 am
Hey there,
Just want to that it’s an encouragement to know that there are people out there who have set their hearts on following God and all that He has for you, no matter the cost. Salary, promotion opportunities, etc are all driving motivations for many people, but to think of serving others and the call of God is definitely honoring God.
As you set your heart on Him and make Him your delight, His desires will become your desires..He gives you the desires that are in your heart, and because of that u will see Him work on Your behalf, in and through your life.
Take care sis and God bless